The river is so cold and wet
I am sinking out of sight
Dark cold water fills my lungs
I’ve killed myself tonight.
Floating down the swollen river
The stars they shine so bright
My coat is heavy, weighs me down
Could it be tonight?
Upon the bridge I’m looking down
My head is numb and light
No one’s around, so I step off
Maybe it’s tonight?
I close the door behind me
The snow is crisp and white
I have a plan, I’ll see it through
Please God, please tonight?
My dearest friends and family
My last wishes I here write
It’s not your fault, but I must go
I’m sorry, but it’s tonight.
My thoughts and feelings hurt me so
Nothing left to fight
I have to end this living hell
I believe it is tonight.
Depression is too deep, too dark
The tunnel has no light
I’ve laid in bed another week
Stuff, it’s tonight
I’ll dial that helpline number
Though I’m scared and full of fright
“I’m desperate can you help me?”
I reached out tonight.
Make the call, You’re worth it!
In 2016 there were 6188 suicides in The UK and Republic of Ireland. Suicide is a serious issue. If you are feeling suicidal help is available.
In the USA Nation Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255
In Canada 403 327 7905
In Australia Lifeline Australia 13 11 14
In India The Samaritans +91-22-2307-3451
In Israel Eran 1201
Please add suicide hotline numbers from your country in the comments and I will add them above.
P.S. My poetry can be quite intense. I am OK. Writing is recovery.