Considering The Year Ahead, Life, Death And Photography

It would be impossible to think of the future without considering that there is the potential for me to die from heart disease. As you’re aware I have decided not to have surgery for my heart condition. I can see how dieing could be a scary experience, but I have been at peace since making this decision.

Knowing that I have a limited time left has most certainly helped me to focus on living well and considering whether my daily actions improve the quality of my life. This doesn’t mean running around like a mad march hare and doing, doing, doing. Sometimes I just want to sit still and do nothing, others I want to read or birdwatch, and occasionally I want to be around people.

I’m not used to being around people, and I can struggle even when I’m around those who I love and feel safe with. Getting the balance right for me isn’t easy, I’ve had a wonderful Christmas, but I’m ready to go home now.

When I return home my plan is to begin meditating daily. Meditation is most definitely linked to my creativity and photography. I have a few ideas for photographic project’s and I know meditation will help with developing these. I have vague ideas about making photos with others who identify as being non-binary or gender fluid, and making use of masks or props to explore and express gender identity.

I’ve particularly enjoyed my embroidered photography this year, for my project “Some Emotional States Of My Anorexia, And The Strengths Of My Recovery.” I completed the project just before Christmas, but I don’t feel ready to make these public at the moment. The wonderful thing is that I already have a gallery/arts project who would like to exhibit the series. I can see the potential for building upon this work to explore mental health further. Meditation will definitely aid my progress in these areas.

“Snippets” is a series I’m currently working on in which I write down snippets of overheard conversation and take a photo in the area of which the conversation was heard. I got the idea from a fellow OCA photography student Chloe Halstead. The idea is to have this as a long term project using my Huawei Mate 20 Pro, and to present the series as a photo book.

Hopefully I will also have some news about my application for a bursary to study an Open Foundation in Creative Writing, with the Open College of the Arts, I can feel some more photo essays coming along.

Colour is also going to feature in the clothes I wear, it’s time to bring more colour and variety into my attire, and today I’m top to bottom in yellow. I’ve also seen some green corduroys that I like. I’ll give them some thought.

I guess I’ll need to tone the colours down when birdwatching, something which I plan to do more of this year. I’m so grateful that I discovered RSPB Rainham Marshes. One thing that would aid my birdwatching would be finding a teleconverter that I can attach to the front of my Mzuiko 75-300mm lens. I can’t currently afford one. However, I have four photos appearing in The Loudest Whispers exhibition, run by The Arts Project London, during February, March and April. If they sell then I’ll be able to afford a teleconverter. Fingers crossed. 

I don’t have a bucket list, but I would like to be able to go on a birdwatching holiday during the summer.

Wishing you all a wonderful year ahead.

A Day Of Birdwatching At Rainham Marshes RSPB

Yesterday, I visited RSPB Rainham Marshes. The weather wasn’t the greatest, but I had a wonderful time. The site is fully accessible, has a visitor centre with cafe, and some wonderful managed marshland. The birding was brilliant and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. There’s no doubt that I’ll be going back there soon.

My bird of the day was definitely the Northern Pintail, with the Redwing being my second favourite. Here are a few photo’s from my visit.

Northern Pintail
Northern Pintail

Redwing

Redwing
Kestral
Kestral
Northern Lapwing with Black Headed Gull’s
Northern Lapwing
Eurasian Teal with Northern Lapwing
Northern Lapwing
Eurasian Wigeon (male)
Eurasian Wigeon (male)
Eurasian Wigeon (female)
Northern Shoveler (male)
Northern Shoveler (female)
Canary Wharf taken from Purfleet
A rainbow over Rainham Marshes

 

London Wetlands Centre

Birds of London Wetlands

Watching birds brings me so much peace and joy. Whenever I get to the wetlands, St James Park or Regents Park I’m going to take photos as a way of documenting “what was there”.

Here’s a few more bird pics.

This probably the best wildlife photo that I have taken. I am so pleased with this Robin.

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands

Birds of London Wetlands